Thursday, April 15, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
When i was told to kill Ikemefuna,i was afraid. Ezeudu told me not to kill Ikemefuna,but i did not listen to him.I did not want to be thought as the weak.I killed 5 man in war,i thought to myself why should i be afraid to kill just one guy?Nwoye found out that Ikemefuna was going to be killed,i was sad too but i had to put up an act.Frankly,i really did not want to kill Ikemefuna,but i had no choice as i did not want to resemble my father.After i killed Ikemefuna, i had no appetite or whatsoever and everything seemed wrong.I regretted killing him.My daughter Ezinma had a good attitude, i was really proud of her but sadly,she was not a man.I feel that Ezinma displays masculinity.
I feel that my wives are getting along very well and helping others in times of need.For example,when i scolded Ojiugo,Nwoye's mother lied to me as she was trying to minimise Ojiugo's thoughtlessness.I was not happy,so i decided to beat Ojiugo as she was not telling me the truth.I hate people lying to me.So happen,it was the Week of Peace,i was not allowed to be beating my wife,although my other wives pleaded me to stop,i did not want to stop as i wanted to be manly.Actually i was scared of offending the goddess but i had to show masculinity.I want Nwoye to be a great farmer,a great man just like me.I don't like feasting,i prefer to be out in the farm working.With Ikemefuna guiding my son,i feel that Nwoye's attitude is improving.I now think there is a chance for Nwoye to grow up as a successful man.I was very pleased with Ikemefuna as he contributed alot to my sons development.
I was not very happy about receiving Ikemefuna which was the ill-fated lad who was used to sacrificed to my village.I already had enough problems to take care of and this just added more stress.I was shocked to hear that Ikemefuna had to live with me for 3 years.I was very stern to my children and wives. I was especially stern to my youngest one as i thought that she had the greatest potential to be successful.I am strict to my children as i do not want them to be like my father,Unoka.I wanted them to know that i am doing all this for their own good but i was embarrassed to tell them.My greatest fear was failure and weakness as that would resemble my father.So i often think of my own success .I have a rule,which is to hate everything that my father loved.One of the things was gentleness and another was idleness.Soon,it was the planting season.I had to work daily in my farm from cock-crow until the chickens went to roost.I am physically fit so i seldom feel fatigue.I feel that man should have total control of everything and woman should just do as they are told.This was why i was angry when one of my wife asked me how long Ikemefuna was staying with us.My dad was a ill-fated man and died from a swelling which was an abomination of the earth goddess.I believe that,that was his punishment for being so lazy and improvident.I never said that to people before as that could be insulting to my village cultural beliefs.Yams to me are very important as they are a sign of masculinity,the more yams we have,the more masculine we are.There was year that the weather was mad.The yams were all greatly affected and i was disappointed to hear that a farmer commited suicide because of this.To me, i was not really affected as i was a strong fighter.My son Nwoye was an intelligent man but he lacked discipline. I actually liked Ikemefuna as he was a good boy and Nwoye my son,was no where as good as him.But i didn't show that i liked Ikemefuna as that would be a sign of weakness.
Hi i am okonkwo and i am well-known among the nine villages. I have never actually thought of being so successful.As a young man at the age of eighteen,i managed to take down Amalinze the Cat,the reason why i put in so much effort in whatever i do is because i want to be successful.I don't want to be thought as the weak and be like my father Unoka.I have a hatred for my father,he is lazy and improvident,he was always in debts because he was constantly borrowing money from our neighbours and not paying them back.I felt disgraceful to have such a useless father.So i made up my mind,did not want to use my father as a good example because he never showed anything that was worth learning.
Twenty or more years has past.....
Now i have fame,family and most importantly i have 3 wives.I am tall and huge,i keep my eyebrows bushy to give a stern look,hopefully people would be afraid of me and treat me with respect. Now having a family and 3 wives, i am constantly under alot of pressure as i need to make sure that my family gets a good life.Most of the time,i am exhausted and have a slight stammer.I am also constantly forgetting what i want to say as i have too many things in mind and this make me very frustrated.I have no patience with unsuccessful man,like my father Unoka and this was my main reason why i had zero tolerance for unsuccessful man.I would not forgive my father for being so useless even though this happened a long time ago.To be honest,the only good thing that my dad could do was to play a flute and that was in his younger days.When he was grown-up,he was a failure.I was also humiliated as people often laughed at my father for being a loafer.I really wish my dad was like his good friend Okoye who was a musician but had a large barn full of yams and has 3 wives too.When my dad died,he died with no title at all and was also heavily in debt.I really feel that my dad's life was meaningless.I am really glad i have two barns full of yams and a rich farmer too!I am also really happy to be the total opposite of dad,as i was one of the greatest man of my time at a young age.
Twenty or more years has past.....
Now i have fame,family and most importantly i have 3 wives.I am tall and huge,i keep my eyebrows bushy to give a stern look,hopefully people would be afraid of me and treat me with respect. Now having a family and 3 wives, i am constantly under alot of pressure as i need to make sure that my family gets a good life.Most of the time,i am exhausted and have a slight stammer.I am also constantly forgetting what i want to say as i have too many things in mind and this make me very frustrated.I have no patience with unsuccessful man,like my father Unoka and this was my main reason why i had zero tolerance for unsuccessful man.I would not forgive my father for being so useless even though this happened a long time ago.To be honest,the only good thing that my dad could do was to play a flute and that was in his younger days.When he was grown-up,he was a failure.I was also humiliated as people often laughed at my father for being a loafer.I really wish my dad was like his good friend Okoye who was a musician but had a large barn full of yams and has 3 wives too.When my dad died,he died with no title at all and was also heavily in debt.I really feel that my dad's life was meaningless.I am really glad i have two barns full of yams and a rich farmer too!I am also really happy to be the total opposite of dad,as i was one of the greatest man of my time at a young age.
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